Unwanted.

I feel sad and... kind of unwanted. When people ask me 'How are you?' I say 'Fine.' just because I'm afraid I may hurt them if I say that I feel unwanted because... They are talking to me, so they obviously like talking to me or something.
Is weird, isn't it? The people I love the most, those he care about me... I can't talk to them about that either, when it shouldn't be like that, I should be able to talk to them about the important things. I don't want to hurt them.
But for some reason, there are days when it doens't matter if someone tells me 'I love you.' or 'You're really important to me.', I feel it's an illusion, it's not real... And I hate that feeling.